Acrylic on canvas – 15 x 18 inch – Unique work

And I close my eyes, my heart races, my breathing struggles to find a regular rhythm. It’s chaos.

Every night, it’s the same old story. It’s as if my mind refuses to shut down. As if it’s afraid of dying. Nonsense! So I try to regain control of my emotions. I manage, with varying degrees of success. And then suddenly… out of nowhere…

While my eyes are closed, my eyelids—to be honest, I’m not entirely sure—but I do see things. In this semi-hypnotic state (even though I’ve never practiced hypnosis), my eyelids seem to rest gently, and that’s when I see faces.

Amazing! I focus, letting go, and then everything vanishes at once. Gently, I enter this unreal world that nonetheless seems so real, within my reach. All I have to do is reach out. They are all there in different settings, busy living their lives. They talk amongst themselves, they laugh. They act as if I wasn’t there. I’m spying on them without their knowledge, after all.

I blink, my eyelids still closed, and the scene shifts. The faces are younger, more “medieval” in style. If I wanted, I could almost draw them. They’re so lifelike.

The first time I experienced this phenomenon, I was terrified and thought I was going crazy, literally. Then I did some research on the subject. And if I understand correctly, these are definitely faces I’ve seen before. Crazy!
Faces I’ve seen in the street, on television, in a photo album… In short, from all walks of life. They exist, and my brain has already encountered them somehow.

Who knows why they keep reappearing like this! I think it’s fun now. The fear has vanished. However, I still don’t know how to control the process. Actually, it’s not ongoing. The thousand faces don’t obey my commands, my desires. One day here they are, the next, they’ve disappeared. I don’t know how to tame them.

Freedom in all its simplicity. These thousand faces will teach me about life, real life. I look at you and feel this pure, vibrant energy, to be consumed without restraint.

And I close my eyes, my heart races a little, my breathing finds its rhythm. It’s balance and harmony restored.